{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"That wierd guy next door (maverick)'s status on Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:58:04 UTC","author_name":"That wierd guy next door (maverick)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/maverick","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/2301677","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/2620\" class=\"url\" title=\"Dane Dychkowski\"><span class=\"fn nickname\">yodelerty<\/span><\/a><\/span> it's doubtful. Even though I have a goal and want to achieve it and help others, I can't look in a mirror or hear my own voice without thinking how ugly\/stupid\/dumb I sound\/look. Even though I pull through each day, it's so hard to. I feel heavy and empty inside. I feel disconnected and lots of sadness. It just won't leave me."}