{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Scribus (scribus)'s status on Thursday, 14-Nov-13 07:30:39 UTC","author_name":"Scribus (scribus)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/scribus","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/3119190","html":"So anyway, I've  been spending the past several months making a goddamned wreck of the travesty that passes for my life. I no longer really feel like there's anything I enjoy, that actually feels "fun" or makes me "happy." Lately it feels like even the Prozac is just keeping life tolerable. But! When I have a bad, it always feels like everything has been awful forever and always will be. I swear, I can remember feeling happy. I just feel like I can't feel it again. I haven't gone to my swordfights in months because it got stressful and wasn't enjoyable, my weapons were breaking, and I was doing really damned poorly so that hurt my pride. I dunno. I'm a walking catastrophe and I'm at my wits' end."}