{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"clayinthecarpet's status on Monday, 19-Jan-15 17:44:39 UTC","author_name":"clayinthecarpet","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/clayinthecarpet","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/3810175","html":"@mastertdi<\/span><\/a><\/span>:
"The potential of humanity feels so far away from me and disconnected. I look at a bodybuilder, someone shopping for new clothes in a department store, an olympic performer, some happy guy shaking various hands in an expensive business suit, lovers holding hands walking around town, children playing outside, a person who enjoys their line of work and wants to move up through management, or even someone who looks nice having a run on the side of the road I'm driving on and think to myself, "Why? ...Just...why? How, even?"
I used to understand, but now I don't. I just don't get ANY of it. All of that cherry suffocates me and causes that bad feeling in the middle of my chest that I hate so much. I don't know what to call it...but it happens when I think about all those things. Well, it doesn't matter anyway. I will be what and who I am, regardless. If you read this, thanks for doing so. I just needed to spill out for a moment. The glass gets pretty full sometimes, ya know.""}