{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"MetalTao (metaltao)'s status on Tuesday, 23-Feb-16 01:21:28 UTC","author_name":"MetalTao (metaltao)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/metaltao","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/4089755","html":"I have desires damn it! And this heated, internal, contention is eating me away! GAH! There is a thing or person I want to be, the tools are in front of me at my disposal and I can't seem to get over that gap. I want to impress! To divine to others my fascinations and whimsy and have them be entertained by some insane story and calligraphy! I can't seem to get over this hump and I simply want to express how fearful I am about getting so close as my irrational mind boggles me with fears of rejection and being ignored. I know I can do it!"}