1.0 link Rainbow Dash Network http://rainbowdash.net/ clayinthecarpet http://rainbowdash.net/clayinthecarpet http://rainbowdash.net/notice/3810175 @<span class="vcard"><a href="http://rainbowdash.net/user/4526" class="url" title="Valerie Plame"><span class="fn nickname mention">mastertdi</span></a></span>:<br />&quot;The potential of humanity feels so far away from me and disconnected. I look at a bodybuilder, someone shopping for new clothes in a department store, an olympic performer, some happy guy shaking various hands in an expensive business suit, lovers holding hands walking around town, children playing outside, a person who enjoys their line of work and wants to move up through management, or even someone who looks nice having a run on the side of the road I'm driving on and think to myself, &quot;Why? ...Just...why? How, even?&quot;<br />I used to understand, but now I don't. I just don't get ANY of it. All of that cherry suffocates me and causes that bad feeling in the middle of my chest that I hate so much. I don't know what to call it...but it happens when I think about all those things. Well, it doesn't matter anyway. I will be what and who I am, regardless. If you read this, thanks for doing so. I just needed to spill out for a moment. The glass gets pretty full sometimes, ya know.&quot;