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  1. That wierd guy next door That wierd guy next door

    One should be able to be happy with themselves while sober. What's become of me.

    Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:09:15 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
    1. Pony Pony

      @renovatedkitchen When inebriation is used to escape being unhappy it doesn't actually make you happy, it just makes you forget and 'feel good.' Returning to unhappiness afterward is natural. It will pass though if you give yourself time. Since you lack medication you'll be likely to want to self medicate with alcohol, but keep in mind it's a depressant and won't help in the long run. You know this already though I'm guessing. Try finding a better way to self medicate maybe? Exercise, fresh healthy food, sleep, wholesome recreation, yadda yadda. Be kind to yourself when you make mistakes too, unless you're the type (and I don't think you are) to be too easy on yourself.

      Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:22:26 UTC from web
      1. That wierd guy next door That wierd guy next door

        @pony I know I can continue like this, but seriously. I hate myself /so/ much. If I hear myself talk, I hate myself. If I feel happy, I hate myself. It actually makes me want to cry

        Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:25:02 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
      2. That wierd guy next door That wierd guy next door

        @pony and I know I will return to unhappiness. Partly why I tried to overdose was because I figured if I took a lot of pills, I would be stuck in the happy world.

        Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:26:05 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
        1. Pony Pony

          @renovatedkitchen We can't always escape. We can never escape the very most important things. Acknowledge that you feel pain, intense or otherwise. Sit with it and accept it, and try to let as much of it go as possible.

          Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:29:42 UTC from web
          1. That wierd guy next door That wierd guy next door

            @pony I otherwise can't let it escape. It's gotten to such an extreme. I do acknowledge it, but it's constant. Sadness is okay. But my level is too much. I can't handle it. Once a week thoughts of dying? Okay. But I'm talking about every day. Sometimes I will forget about them and things are going well. Then, give it a couple minutes and its all back. It just pops back in. It's not possible to not think about it.

            Wednesday, 06-Feb-13 07:33:21 UTC from StatusNet iPhone