{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Pony (pony)'s status on Sunday, 24-Jun-12 14:21:13 UTC","author_name":"Pony (pony)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/pony","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/1588831","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/11855\" class=\"url\" title=\"The white void\"><span class=\"fn nickname\">hakupony<\/span><\/a><\/span> I've read about the 5 stages of mourning. I feel like I'm somewhere within stages 2-4.  When my mental bargaining efforts fail I feel anger or depression.  The thing is, I [i]could[\/i] fulfill my fantasies, but the price is far too high. I dread the possibility, even the likelihood, that I might eventually choose to disregard the consequences and seek fulfillment. Anger leads me in this direction, which I often find preferable to depression.  Maybe if i could cope with the depression better i'd be able to make it through to acceptance."}