{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"That wierd guy next door (maverick)'s status on Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:38:30 UTC","author_name":"That wierd guy next door (maverick)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/maverick","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/2420489","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/9\" class=\"url\" title=\"Rarity\"><span class=\"fn nickname\">rarity<\/span><\/a><\/span> Honestly Nico, I have always hated myself, everything I have done and everything. When I was younger, I had a reoccurring dream almost every night that consisted of a voice yelling at me that I am stupid, a failure and that is all I will ever be. I grew to enjoy those dreams and would fake laugh and I would have a false smile all through the dream to try to dampen the effects of the dream. I rarely get the dream these days, but it was nearly every night until about 3-4 years ago"}