{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Cerulean Spark (ceruleanspark)'s status on Tuesday, 13-Aug-13 22:29:50 UTC","author_name":"Cerulean Spark (ceruleanspark)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/ceruleanspark","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/2913031","html":"#<span class=\"tag\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/tag\/totw\" rel=\"tag\">totw<\/a><\/span> I <i>\/do\/<\/i> feel a throbbing sadness I almost cannot stand from My Little Pony, and it's not for some glib reason like &quot;The fanbase&quot;. It's almost a sense of loss, or even jealousy, a sense that I have been cheated out of something which I might otherwise have had. It comes over me whenever I hear music or see anything from the show, this sense that I was close to something and now it's gone, beyond any hope of recovery. I don't know if it's something that changed in the fandom, or the show itself, or inside of me, but I feel it acutely and it leaves me persistently melancholy. &quot;Nothing, when there should be something&quot;, to borrow a line from Cecil."}