{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Colby (dropsterdash)'s status on Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:58:36 UTC","author_name":"Colby (dropsterdash)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/dropsterdash","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/3093307","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/27925\" class=\"url\" title=\"Lee\"><span class=\"fn nickname\">beatstrings<\/span><\/a><\/span> Well, I try not to think about fear. But my ADD has me thinking at a very fast pace at all waking hours... Eventually I run out of encouraging\/happy thoughts to think. At that point I generally can't help but think of scenarios of my future. Eventually, I find one or two that are somewhere between somewhat worrying and absolutely terrifying. Then I will fret about these scenarios for the rest of the week, or even the rest of my life if they are scary enough. I really wish I could change this, but that would require fundamentally  changing who I am. Even if I  could, I'm not sure I would want to."}