{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Eris (neuraria)'s status on Saturday, 25-Jan-14 06:47:09 UTC","author_name":"Eris (neuraria)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/neuraria","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/3265061","html":"Let me tell you boys and girls a story. <span class=\"spbar\" style=\"color:#000;background-color:#000;\">I actually did try to commit suicide once. I won't go into details about why but basically I completely broke down in a woodwork class surrounded by tools. But  I just couldn't do it. Nowadays I just feel horribly depressed and weak and just want to be wiped out by some freak act of nature. I can't cause pain to myself. I just don't want to be a part of this world, so I start pretending I'm a pony or I'm what I feel inside and pretend that I'm in a world that isn't so grapesed up on the inside.<\/span>"}