{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Narwhal (narwhal)'s status on Friday, 16-Jan-15 08:10:38 UTC","author_name":"Narwhal (narwhal)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/narwhal","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/3804941","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/2620\" class=\"url\" title=\"&#xFF24;&#xFF52;. &#x30A2;&#x30C0;&#x30E0;&#x30FB;&#x30E4;&#x30F3;&#x30B0;&#x3001;&#xFF30;&#xFF48;&#xFF0E;&#xFF24;\"><span class=\"fn nickname mention\">yodelerty<\/span><\/a><\/span> The other thing is I hate the way I look, I hate the way I sound, I hate the way I talk, I wish I could <i>be<\/i> something and not just <i>do<\/i> something. I want some sense of purpose, even if it's not necessarily in the sense of self actualization. I want to have value, I am nothing."}