{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Xandrae Imnotgivingmynametoamachine (fortecanter)'s status on Friday, 12-Aug-11 13:16:14 UTC","author_name":"Xandrae Imnotgivingmynametoamachine (fortecanter)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/fortecanter","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/386257","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/3111\" class=\"url\" title=\"Israel Michael Gowan\"><span class=\"fn nickname\">mrn4rmn4rm<\/span><\/a><\/span> I have no idea. Just bored &amp; tired. annoyed with my own technique of self-sabotaging. I just suck at the whole motivation thing &amp; here I am devoting my time cherriesing about it on a website I joined to become more part of a fandom I got into because it was either that or actually do some homework or help around the house. Just like all the other fandoms. I mean I want to achieve something &amp; i know I have to work at it, it won't just get given to me. But of course, homework is piling up &amp; I have to put the music homework ahead of the rest, &amp; I don't even do that. I'm studying the goddamn Simpsons, you'd think i'd be all over that mangoes. But I just don't have the motivation no matter how hard I try. &amp; I want to do well, I want to get it all done so I don't have to freak about about it like I am now, but every time I try I just. Can't, you know? I just don't have the motivation, &amp; I have no clue why I don't. Bloody self sabotage."}