{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"MetalTao (metaltao)'s status on Friday, 01-Apr-16 23:19:48 UTC","author_name":"MetalTao (metaltao)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/metaltao","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/4122560","html":"@<span class=\"vcard\"><a href=\"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/user\/1766\" class=\"url\" title=\"Zenneth River-Styx\"><span class=\"fn nickname mention\">zennx<\/span><\/a><\/span> Dude, I feel the same way. <br \/>But not exactly so.<br \/>I like to show off and be the center of attention because I can eel rather dull.<br \/>But, once I start going and doing it consistently, then I rely onit a lot for my ego as I end up forgetting the other things that keep me afloat, so when I end up finally messing up, I feel really bad and can't help but feel like it will get worse. My life is a curve, and I can only see in tangential straight lines. <br \/>Also, I have a certain identity that follows the lines of an intellectual, if I find myself unknowing of something in any field. I feel like I failed some how or I am making the other speaker who knows it feel awkward."}