{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"lilytheamazingfaintingpony's status on Saturday, 20-Aug-11 13:21:23 UTC","author_name":"lilytheamazingfaintingpony","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/lilytheamazingfaintingpony","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/415351","html":"@leonkfox<\/span><\/a><\/span> @koen<\/span><\/a><\/span> Actually, things are not too good on my end. I'll be thirty in six nonths and three days, so I took a long hard look at myself in the mirror. I do not like what I see in myself. At all. I'm a lazy slob who still lives at home. I occasionally lose my temper at work, I can't quit watching porn, and I'm a pot addict. I...I just never go all in at something...I want to be passionate, I want to do my best, but I never do more than the bare minimum. My attempts to correct always half-hearted, my personal economy is almost dead(I keep buying junk food and candy and magazines and little things that I want there and then, I never save up for something really valuable). The worst thing is, I'm not really motivated enough to change. I have dreams, but not the drive."}