{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Rainbow Dash Network","provider_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/","type":"link","title":"Crash (lightningcrash)'s status on Thursday, 27-Oct-11 10:08:41 UTC","author_name":"Crash (lightningcrash)","author_url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/lightningcrash","url":"http:\/\/rainbowdash.net\/notice\/677305","html":"I feel like such a dirtbag... faked my own suicide so I could find out the truth and seperate what's real from what's not. I paid a heavy price for it... prolly lost me a lot of friends... But if I hadn't, my mind would still be in chaos now. Hell, it still kind of is. My body is tearing itself apart trying to decide what is honest and true, a never-ending war between mind and heart. Most damnable plight, I should be cursed to hell for what I did. I had to trick so many, just to see if Sonia was real..."}