1.0 link Rainbow Dash Network http://rainbowdash.net/ Pony (pony) http://rainbowdash.net/pony http://rainbowdash.net/notice/1264275 @<span class="vcard"><a href="http://rainbowdash.net/user/1948" class="url" title="Cerulean Spark"><span class="fn nickname">ceruleanspark</span></a></span> Anyone who diligently seeks truth will find reason for hope. That's not to say that it's easy of course. Do you have any options that don't end in premature death? I used to think about abandoning everything and running away to live in nature when suicide didn't appeal to me. It was like death without dying in that i still was able to imagine escaping everything, even if it meant living rough (in the wilderness, on the streets, etc.