1.0 link Rainbow Dash Network http://rainbowdash.net/ Matt (zeldatra) http://rainbowdash.net/zeldatra http://rainbowdash.net/notice/3400242 @<span class="vcard"><a href="http://rainbowdash.net/user/14399" class="url" title="Michael D Garrett"><span class="fn nickname mention">cloudflare</span></a></span> First things first: I'm 16 and currently draw horse cartoons from my bedroom, I am NOT one to go to for life advice. Secondly, some life advice. I think that being on your own would be a little dangerous given your previously stated suicidal tendencies. I suggest getting some kind of psychiatric help, and in the meantime staying close to family as a sort of moral support.