1.0 link Rainbow Dash Network http://rainbowdash.net/ MetalTao (metaltao) http://rainbowdash.net/metaltao http://rainbowdash.net/notice/4122560 @<span class="vcard"><a href="http://rainbowdash.net/user/1766" class="url" title="Zenneth River-Styx"><span class="fn nickname mention">zennx</span></a></span> Dude, I feel the same way. <br />But not exactly so.<br />I like to show off and be the center of attention because I can eel rather dull.<br />But, once I start going and doing it consistently, then I rely onit a lot for my ego as I end up forgetting the other things that keep me afloat, so when I end up finally messing up, I feel really bad and can't help but feel like it will get worse. My life is a curve, and I can only see in tangential straight lines. <br />Also, I have a certain identity that follows the lines of an intellectual, if I find myself unknowing of something in any field. I feel like I failed some how or I am making the other speaker who knows it feel awkward.