Xandrae Imnotgivingmynametoamachine (fortecanter)'s status on Friday, 12-Aug-11 13:16:14 UTC
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@mrn4rmn4rm I have no idea. Just bored & tired. annoyed with my own technique of self-sabotaging. I just suck at the whole motivation thing & here I am devoting my time cherriesing about it on a website I joined to become more part of a fandom I got into because it was either that or actually do some homework or help around the house. Just like all the other fandoms. I mean I want to achieve something & i know I have to work at it, it won't just get given to me. But of course, homework is piling up & I have to put the music homework ahead of the rest, & I don't even do that. I'm studying the goddamn Simpsons, you'd think i'd be all over that mangoes. But I just don't have the motivation no matter how hard I try. & I want to do well, I want to get it all done so I don't have to freak about about it like I am now, but every time I try I just. Can't, you know? I just don't have the motivation, & I have no clue why I don't. Bloody self sabotage.
