Edward Engelhardt (pizzicato)'s status on Wednesday, 17-Aug-11 05:38:00 UTC

Edward Engelhardt

@abigpony It's not even that, but I know a dead end when I see one. I destroyed myself over a chick last year. To begin with I'm not mentally well adjusted and have been diagnosed with a mental disorder, I have it, bad. It makes me insane, I'll never understand how other people deal with things, because clinically speaking, I'm a crazy person. I'm not self diagnosed, four doctors have told me 'Yeah man, you're crazy. Uhm, y-...yeah leave. Like, you should, just, really, you're the kinda crazy who I /really/ don't want around. So y'know, leave. Please. Fast', only not in those words. Still, upstairs, I'm not all together. Despite that, I let this chick lean on me till I was broken, and let her lean on me some more. I had no room for anyone else's burdens, and I let this chick put all her burdens on me. Me, crazy person, then her with this kiwi. It broke me moreso than I ever have been. If I see a road heading anywhere near that path, I get away, fast, 'cause I can not handle it.