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omni
I guess I should tell all of you (or at least the ones that care) that I'm going to my owner tomorrow and will try my best to still be online every now and then the coming week but can't promise anything
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omni
@techdisk42 Yeah, I'm a pet. Could switch every instance of "owner" with "partner" if that's easier for you
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omni
@rarity And I will never understand why everybody keeps saying everything I do is cute / I am cute, but oh well, it's not important anyway, as long as she is happy to have me x.x
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@omni I've just always found owner/pet relationships absolutely precious, so I can't help but gush.
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@rarity It has its interesting sides, I agree. I personally choose this because I need someone to watch over me as I cannot trust myself and she's the only one I trust really well. As someone who has been through some trust-abuse it feels great to give her complete control over me and knowing that she won't abuse it, that I'm safe...
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@rarity Sweet? Perhaps. It's just the only kind of relationship I can really be in. I am literally too broken to take care of myself well and therefore literally can't be equal or above my partner
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@rarity I find it beautiful that I can trust her completely. I love the fact that I can even share a bed with her, knowing that I'm safe and she won't abuse me in any way, not even when asleep. It's just a great feeling, especially after the things that those I trusted most and considered my friends did to me ._.
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@omni I don't know you all too well, but as far as I can tell there's nothing about you that doesn't deserve a loving companion.
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@rarity Even someone who cares about me and has the patience to put up with all my bad sides? Who goes through the trouble of calming me down when I'm getting a panic attack even if it takes her an hour? Who accepts me as I am? I mean, I don't think I deserve to be completely alone, but I really wonder if I deserve someone as great as her, especially because there is little I can do to please her as I need much more care than I can give (even though I always try my best to keep her happy)
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@omni I can only give you this advice: Don't spend your time worrying if you deserve her or not. I've been in relationships where that was a factor, and doesn't help at all. In the end, it doesn't matter if you "deserve" her or not. She chooses to be with you, yes? She obviously finds you worth her time.
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omni
@rarity I suppose you've got a point. I really stress myself out too much over small stuff, something I should really stop doing x.x
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@omni If you let the small stuff get to you, then the big stuff just seems even worse. An important skill to have is to recognize when something bad isn't as bad as it seems, and simply isn't worth your time. More often than not you are bigger than your problems.
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@rarity I guess I do let small stuff get to me too much, more often than not after a panic attack it always turns out whatever I panicked about wasn't worth panicking about at all. I really have a problem with "filtering" and "ignoring". My psychiatrist said I've got PDD-NOS but I still think it's my own fault, albeit I don't know how I can stop this from happening, because the more I try to ignore the worse it becomes and the more it hurts me x.x
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@rarity Why? It's all my own fault. At least, most of it. I'm inferior anyway, it's not important. The only thing that matters is that I improve her life, how I'm doing is unimportant. Really, I don't mind it. Sure, it sucks at times, but just doing my best to keep her happy is worth it *smiles a bit* As long as she's fine, I'm fine
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@rarity You know, I'm just complaining about stupid things, I'm sorry for wasting your time like this x.x
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@omni OK! Well, have a good time either way *hugs*
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omni
@ceruleanspark #hugs Thanks
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@omni Well hope you two get along swimmingly
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@harpsichordart We do get along well in general. And, whenever we don't, it's mostly my fault anyway. I'm not such a great pet but I try my best (even though I have no clue why I'm saying these things now, being honest) x.x
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@omni Well that's great! Though I don't think it's too healthy to place blame on yourself like that
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@harpsichordart I could care less about my own health, being honest. I don't exist for myself, I exist to serve the one I love
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@omni Ahh. I'd say I'm pretty fortunate mine lives just 5 minutes away. Still, hope you have fun there
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@scribble Oh, that sounds just great. Wish she would live that close to me. Oh well, if everything goes well we should be able to start living together in a few years so that should drastically increase the amount of time we can spend together
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