zstargazer's status on Friday, 02-Dec-11 04:12:26 UTC
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My stupid mind and instinct got the better of me again. Why do I have to be so melodramatic. I know why. I let my stupid feelings control me. Why I do that I don't know... And why I make it public I do know. Throughout my life, yes I was an attention whore. I wanted people to notice me, and at sometimes at any cost. I for some reason like negative attention. Probably because it triggers emotions that get negative attention. It's kind of like a loop. My autisim doesnt help at all in the slightest... I put my feelings into my oc and stuff because ponies is a passion of mine. And I get emotional about upsetting you guys because I care about all of you. So please dont push the button mrdragon or colfax... I've tried so hard to change the way I have acted, yet it comes spiraling down once mor. And for that I apologize, and with recent events, I would ban myself too f I was a moderator, and maybe you keep me here because you have some faith, maybe it's because you care. I don't know. But TY.
