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I don't wanna go back to work...
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@flaredancer I don't wanna be at work. We should form a club, and use it as an excuse to skip work.
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@ceruleanspark Luckily I somehow managed to score a week off work ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 11:32:59 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Last time I had free time off work was after my second suicide attempt.
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@ceruleanspark !!! :( I'm really sorry to hear that. Suicide will still leave all your problems unsolved though, even if you dont have to deal with them. Fingers crossed that never happens again :(. Theres much more to life than what we live. Theres so much to do and see! Oh, I really do hope nothing like that happens again. I know things can be just absolutely horrible at times, but really. There really is much more to do in this life rather than to just end it.
Monday, 14-May-12 11:40:47 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen So I keep hearing. I don't believe it though.
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@ceruleanspark plushie should plushie plushie, not suicide!
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@ceruleanspark Life can be pretty amazing. Sometimes it is hard to see that, though.
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@ceruleanspark Believe me friend, there is. At times when you are at your lowest, you think all is lost. There is always someone who will be there for you to lift you up. Even a little, and it shows that life is worth while. If you can get two strangers on a site to care for you then you are worth something. Everyone here cares about you, and I am sure people you know irl do as well. You are an awesome friend, and you need to be alive to be that awesome friend.
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@ceruleanspark Well, for the record, I would give anything, including my own life to help you. Whatever it is that is needed. I would offer to send you money, but I have none. Well, less than that. But either way. There is SOOOO much inspiration in this world. Look up towards the sky, search something new in Google, dive in the ocean. There are SO MANY things that we dont know about and even more to discover. Do you ever wonder about things? How they work, or what makes them? Everything in our lives is so complex! Why would you give your life away for nothing. Wouldnt you rather loose it doing something you love? Or something exhilarating? There really is much more to life than what we see. We are not living in reality, we are living in the world we create for ourselves. You have to open those doors! There are so many opportunities and things to enjoy in life!! I'm honestly starting to tear knowing that something has got you feeling so bad :(.
Monday, 14-May-12 11:51:46 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen The thing about depression is that it makes it really hard to give a mangoes.
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@ceruleanspark I know. I was caught in the lowest point in my life about just a tad over two years ago. I was ready to do the same. What stopped me? I dont know. I couldnt find it in me, even though I was so close. I know everyone has their own problems, and their own methods of dealing with things. But when one is ready to take their own life, there is nothing worse. After hours of weeping after, I somehow came to the conclusion that suicide is the dumbest Idea of anything, because it is nothing but pure selfishness. That is when I decided that if I didnt want my life, I would do the best I could to help others. To put a smile on someones face and give them a second chance. Sure its hard to care, but in the end it boils down to your own will. Are you doing it for the right cause? What will you accomplish by doing that? If you still feel the need to, then change your life. Screw work, screw everything. Nothing is more important than you to live a happy life. Saying that depression 1/2
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@ceruleanspark 2/2 is stopping you from caring is a bunch of b.s. ITS YOU that is letting the sadness take you over. That is no way at all how to live a life. Cerulean. I havent met you, and havent even talked with you much, but you are ALWAYS so friendly with the community here, always have something to post that makes me chuckle and think awesome. I know you love the community, and we LOVE you in return!!!! You must please understand this. If you end your life, think of all the people here that WILL miss you! Think of the footprint you have made in your life and all the good times youve laughed, and all the times you've cared for someone. Nothing else matters in your life other than WHAT YOU DO IN IT!!! You can't let such a wonderful life go to waste! Please, or really. PLEASE have another look at life and its wonders! Please Cerulean. WE LOVE YOU!
Monday, 14-May-12 12:18:26 UTC from web
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@ceruleanspark That reminds me of something I heard on TV or something once. "Oh, you hate your job? There's a club for that. It's called Everyone. We meet at the bar."
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@flaredancer Yeah, I've heard that one too. *hugs tight*
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@ceruleanspark *hugs* Two and a half more hours...
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@flaredancer Stay strong!!! I'll still be here at least ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 11:32:04 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen *hugs* I'll try...
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@flaredancer #Hugs Surely there isn't much left :(
Monday, 14-May-12 11:35:36 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen About two hours fifteen left
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@flaredancer YUSSHHH!!! SO CLOSE!! ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 11:53:29 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Soooo close... but so far away...
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@flaredancer Oh I know. :(. Buuut, you get to use the phone at work! ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 12:19:13 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Yeah, that is pretty cool. Even if I did kill both my batteries tonight
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@flaredancer Lol. And THAT is how you know you had a productive day at work! XD
Monday, 14-May-12 12:51:35 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Right, productive. That's what I was supposed to be tonight
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@flaredancer lol. /shrug Not your problem, they give you nothing to do XD. Which is good and bad. Bad because then time crawls.
Monday, 14-May-12 12:56:38 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Yeah, that it does...
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@flaredancer Meh. Sometimes theres nothing you can really do. I mean it pays.
Monday, 14-May-12 13:08:46 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen That's about all it does... and not even much of that
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@flaredancer Mhm. Welcome to todays society :/
Monday, 14-May-12 13:12:22 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen I don't want to. Can I go forward to a time when the economy works again?
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@flaredancer NO! My Subjects must suffer myeth darkness.... forever!!!
Monday, 14-May-12 13:28:52 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen But... but... but... *pouts*
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@flaredancer Its okay #hugs. Here are some ponies. *gives pony toys to you*
Monday, 14-May-12 13:41:52 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen *hugs* yay, ponies =^.^= <3
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@flaredancer Arent they just amazing?!?!!! ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 13:57:26 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Ponies are awesome =^.^=
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@flaredancer So wait, what is it that you like to do other than ponies?
Monday, 14-May-12 14:01:41 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen brb Driving
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@flaredancer okie! ^_^
Monday, 14-May-12 14:09:46 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen I like to do all sorts of things, really. Read, movies, TV, sing, music, dance, archaeology, swim, yoga. What about you?
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@flaredancer Well, Scuba diving, swimming, working on anything technical, researching anything, watching documentaries, music. Lots of stuff now that I think about it. I really like learning about new things :)
Monday, 14-May-12 14:40:55 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen I forgot video games. Sounds like fun =^.^= Learning about new things is always good
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@flaredancer WHILST YOU MAY FORGET VIDEOGAMES, REST ASSURED, VIDEOGAMES REMEMBER YOU.
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@ceruleanspark They miss me something awful... I can tell because they keep recruiting more to my queue
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@ceruleanspark Good oops, though =^.^=
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@flaredancer ah. yes. That too sometimes. Mainly Forza. It is! ^_^ I honestly have too many interests.
Monday, 14-May-12 14:53:08 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen No such thing as too many interests :3
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@flaredancer Happy Weekend.
Monday, 14-May-12 18:28:35 UTC from StatusNet Android-
@carcino Thank you! =^.^=
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@flaredancer What are you doing today?
Monday, 14-May-12 18:32:03 UTC from StatusNet Android-
@carcino School, if I can get out of bed
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@flaredancer I'm at school.
Monday, 14-May-12 18:36:01 UTC from StatusNet Android-
@carcino Cool?
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@flaredancer No, not cool.
Monday, 14-May-12 20:19:35 UTC from StatusNet Android-
@carcino I'm sorry. I only had one class today and it was my fun one
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@flaredancer I've all classes every day. All are good except the last one.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:35:25 UTC from StatusNet Android-
@carcino Yeah, high school was pretty suck.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:37:12 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Yeah it did thats why I love college life.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:37:55 UTC from web-
@mrapplejack1000 It's better than high school, I'll give it that. I just wish I was done and working already
Monday, 14-May-12 21:39:15 UTC from web
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@flaredancer Just the one class actually.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:49:05 UTC from web-
@carcino What class?
Monday, 14-May-12 21:49:45 UTC from web-
@flaredancer English.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:59:38 UTC from web-
@carcino I hate my English class this semester, too. It's all essay writing BS.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:02:18 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Try writing a fan fic on pony
Monday, 14-May-12 22:03:14 UTC from web-
@mrapplejack1000 I don't think she'll let me...
Monday, 14-May-12 22:04:26 UTC from web
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@flaredancer I wouldn't mind it if my teacher wasn't so... Himself.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:10:08 UTC from web-
@carcino Yeah? What's he like?
Monday, 14-May-12 22:10:51 UTC from web-
@flaredancer He's alright, but I'm on his mental list of 'Students to bash during class.' Whenever he talks about Students who he dislikes or bad behavior I always see him glance at me. It's kinda funny.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:16:08 UTC from web-
@carcino Hmm... that's strange
Monday, 14-May-12 22:17:36 UTC from web-
@flaredancer I've asked other students in the class, and they noticed too, so I'm not acting loopy.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:21:59 UTC from web-
@carcino Lovely. *shrugs*
Monday, 14-May-12 22:23:33 UTC from web-
@flaredancer I know right? Dude's crazy.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:29:45 UTC from web-
@carcino Why would he peg you?
Monday, 14-May-12 22:30:10 UTC from web-
@flaredancer If I had to take a guess, it would be my lack of good grade in the class.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:34:48 UTC from web-
@carcino *shrugs* Still pretty lame
Monday, 14-May-12 22:36:17 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Yeah. Oh well. How did you spend your day off? Aside from class.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:37:52 UTC from web-
@carcino Homework. Internet. Nap. Video games, if I have time
Monday, 14-May-12 22:38:52 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Games? I have those.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:39:20 UTC from web-
@carcino I love my games =^.^= Working through Mass Effect right now. Got Bioshock (1 & 2), Borderlands, Portal (1 & 2), Fallout 3, and L4D2. Currently have the N64 hooked up, as well
Monday, 14-May-12 22:41:41 UTC from web-
@flaredancer So that's an Xbox? I have those!
Monday, 14-May-12 22:42:39 UTC from web-
@carcino Steam, actually. I do have a 360, but it's not hooked up.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:43:17 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Steam? I have one of those going to wast!
Monday, 14-May-12 22:47:28 UTC from web-
@carcino Heh I like Steam, m'self
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@flaredancer I too. If you want to add me, I'm pseudodrache
Monday, 14-May-12 22:51:49 UTC from web-
@hakupony You have been added =^.^= Miss_Loki is me
Monday, 14-May-12 22:56:17 UTC from web
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@flaredancer I'm a poor person. Aint got no money for no fancy shmancy computer gaming.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:52:13 UTC from web-
@carcino That's actually why Steam is pretty cool. I got Bioshock 2 and Mass Effect 2 for $5
Monday, 14-May-12 22:57:11 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Really? That's awesome!
Monday, 14-May-12 22:57:53 UTC from web-
@hakupony Yeah, the Mass Effect series were on sale back in... like... November, or something? And the Bioshock games were on sale just a couple months ago.
Monday, 14-May-12 22:59:34 UTC from web
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@flaredancer Interesting. I just kinda have them.
Monday, 14-May-12 23:01:52 UTC from web-
@carcino I hadn't really had any games since the N64
Monday, 14-May-12 23:03:59 UTC from web-
@flaredancer I barely touch mine. They are all so boring now. :L
Monday, 14-May-12 23:06:46 UTC from web-
@carcino I barely touch mine, I have too much school work
Monday, 14-May-12 23:07:19 UTC from web-
@flaredancer Eh. I'll play fighting games.
Monday, 14-May-12 23:14:57 UTC from web
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@flaredancer I guess this is true. But it keeps me from getting my cutie mark :(
Monday, 14-May-12 18:42:49 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Yeah, there is that... don't feel bad, though. I don't have one either
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@flaredancer Mhm. It does keep life fun. Just a pain because family and friends keep telling me to go to school, but I have to pay my own tuition and don't want to waste all that money if u decide to do something else in the end.
Monday, 14-May-12 19:15:58 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Yeah, I know that feel. You could just start getting your general ed. classes out of the way and take random classes of stuff that sounds interesting
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@flaredancer Mhm. That's what I'm thinking. Seems general Ed is the way to go. How did you land archeology?
Monday, 14-May-12 19:29:19 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen I've always been really interested in the not-written-down past. I was going for Anthro at first, but found out that Anthropologists deal with actual living people. Not only am I pretty bad with real live people, but there aren't any living Vikings or Egyptians
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@flaredancer that's awesome. It would be really interesting to know what there still is that has not been discovered about humans history on this planet!
Monday, 14-May-12 19:46:32 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen There's still a lot we don't know. The Vikings, I know, weren't too big on writing stuff down, so the mythologies we have written were written by Christians after the conversion and are probably colored by a Christian view.
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@flaredancer Even worse with the Celts...
Monday, 14-May-12 21:20:26 UTC from web-
@hakupony Yeah. They like to do that... or liked to have done... something along those lines
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@flaredancer With the Celts, it is Roman hitor writing - kind like if you asked the Iran to write about Israeli history...
Monday, 14-May-12 21:26:34 UTC from web-
@hakupony I don't know too much about the Celts, but I do know that Christians in their various big civilizations tend to... well... ruin cultures by spreading their truth. It bothers me a little...
Monday, 14-May-12 21:33:07 UTC from web-
@flaredancer If the church wasn't arount, much knowledge about ancient Rome and Greece would have been lost. Things are as they are *shrugs*
Monday, 14-May-12 21:35:09 UTC from web-
@hakupony Yeah, that's true... There's good and bad in everything.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:36:23 UTC from web
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@flaredancer Hmm. That would seem true. A lot of history is mudded. So how exactly would one go about decoding what is false and what is true? (sorry, internet has been on/off this past while)
Monday, 14-May-12 21:30:06 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Findings and what you get from different sources. When they all agree and your findings are consistent with it, you get a good chance it is legit. However - the first thing about science you learn is how little you really know.
Monday, 14-May-12 21:32:08 UTC from web-
@hakupony lol. That's very true. There is so much to learn out there.
Tuesday, 15-May-12 00:03:07 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@renovatedkitchen It's fine. Material leavings are pretty informative, but we'll never really know (until we get time machines)
Monday, 14-May-12 21:34:27 UTC from web-
@flaredancer it's still interesting to know what we can piece together about their history with what they left behind!
Tuesday, 15-May-12 00:02:31 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen It really is =^.^= I love it
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@flaredancer that awesome. When you are doing a job that you love, it amazing. ^_^
Tuesday, 15-May-12 01:47:03 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen That's very true =^.^=
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