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Uh.. hi?
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:36:15 UTC from web-
@yodelerty *waves*
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:36:44 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Hi. :)
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:37:13 UTC from web-
@tia *waves at you, too* I know, right? Those guns and/or the Slip-N-Slides were just little pieces of heaven. And then you could just stick in a cassette tape of your favorite band in your boom box and pop in a VHS tape afterward. Life was good. ;D
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:39:33 UTC from web
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@clayinthecarpet Wassup.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:37:17 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Losing friends left and right for another day in a row of...god knows how many. You?
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:38:18 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Certainly not self-hating or anything.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:40:42 UTC from web-
@yodelerty No, that would be entirely unlike you.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:41:33 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet And I certainly didn't freak out at my friends. They certainly don't hate me now. HahaHAHAHAHA. kill me please
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:42:55 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I usually don't like to tell people the phrase "I know exactly how you feel right now," because it's a silly attempt at comforting somebody whose feelings you actually may not understand completely. However, considering my entire week has been defined by alienating my friends for my own twisted view of who they are and what they do with their lives, ...I can safely say that I have been where you are right now.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:45:22 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet We're pretty similar in ways. Bad ways.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:46:18 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I used to have my apples together a bit more than you, but now I believe you and I are, in a lot of ways, extremely similar. Perhaps that's another reason I drew your ponysona for you; I knew this was coming.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:49:33 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Or you're just nice. I doubt you can predict the future.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:50:23 UTC from web-
@yodelerty It wasn't about being "nice," my man. It was about seeing something in somebody that I connect with on a deep level. That's why I do OCs for people as gifts, not to "be nice."
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:53:22 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet I guess that makes sense.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:53:42 UTC from web
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Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:36:50 UTC from web
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@tia How ya doing.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:37:35 UTC from web-
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:42:33 UTC from web
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@tia Food having flavour is good I guess. So are colours. Not enough to mask anything but it's a nice flair.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:43:52 UTC from web-
@yodelerty It sucks when stress overwhelms the senses so that nothing uplifts or gladdens the heart.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:46:02 UTC from web-
@tia Welcome to my life 24/7.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:47:15 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I know man. You need some chemical rebalancing seriously. Meds could do wonders for you. Rigorous exercise could too.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:50:12 UTC from web-
@tia I have meds. I've been taking meds for 9 months. They don't do anything. They're just another thing I have to remember in the morning.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:51:55 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Sounds like a change is in order. A good doc will switch them around if you tell them you don't feel they're helping.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:53:18 UTC from web-
@tia I have an appointment on Thursday. I should also be directed to therapy then. Won't help or anything. Pretty sure my depression stems from the fact that I literally have nothing going for me.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 07:55:29 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Though you might deny it, you have internet friends at least. I hope the appointment winds up helping a bit!
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:00:22 UTC from web-
@tia I have two Internet friends. And they almost certainly hate me now, much like most people. Probably because I pull this crap because I literally have no other option if I don't want to explode. And thanks.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:02:47 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I getcha, and for what it's worth I consider you a friend, though I admit there are degrees of friendship and I'm probably not what you personally might consider a friend. I do get annoyed with your whininess, but it seems a lot less frustrating and more rewarding to me if I just commiserate with you rather than trying to "help."
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:07:03 UTC from web-
@tia What I consider a friend might seem steep to some people but I feel a friend should be there for their friend when they need it. And actually communicate on a regular basis. Basically, stay close.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:15:13 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Friends can be...in and out, I'll say, but still care about what you have to say and offer help when/however they can. They never lose faith in you and they like you as a person, regardless of how often you murdock up.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:19:47 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Well then the number of people who are actually my friends are just as low as I thought.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:20:57 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I think your judgment of friendship is impaired by your crippling depression and self pity.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:23:14 UTC from web-
@tia I think my idea of friendship is pretty spot on though.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:26:56 UTC from web-
@yodelerty So we disagree is all. I think you have more friends online than you recognize, and you're pretty dang lucky we still consider you a freind despite you telling us we're not.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:28:35 UTC from web-
@tia I suppose you're a friend. If only because you stick by me despite how disgusting I am. That's something to be noted.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:31:30 UTC from web-
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:32:40 UTC from web
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Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:33:48 UTC from web
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@clayinthecarpet I have so many feels now! :DD
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:35:11 UTC from web-
@tia "You send me dokis/when skies are gray" XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:36:25 UTC from web
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@tia *hug* I guess.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:33:52 UTC from web
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@yodelerty That's very possible. I have only recently (within the last 2 years) learned who my friends really are, and most importantly, WHY they are. I'm almost 28 and have three *real* friends who will be there for me and want to see me happy as an individual, but respect what I do as a person, too. It's hard to describe or quantify in such short-handed statements. However, it is the truth.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:23:21 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet That makes sense. Three's a good number. I think.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:24:48 UTC from web-
@yodelerty By definition, I'm technically your friend, or at least trying to be, for what it's worth. I don't think you suck at all. You're just sad a lot.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:26:38 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet We're sort of friends. I actually sort of figured that I didn't have many friends because I'm sad all the time. Or because I'm just plain repulsive.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:27:53 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Friends...real ones...will be concerned that you ARE sad all the time, not repulsed by it. They'll want to help you, want to understand you and talk to you. Think MLP, man. All that stuff they're teaching us is true and totally applicable in a human setting...of any age.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:31:26 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Those people don't really exist I don't think. They always leave. Always.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:33:31 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Try me.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:35:18 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet I don't want that to be a challenge.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:36:08 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Dude I've known you for months now. There is, categorically, nothing you could do to make me dislike you unless you literally intend to harm me, either verbally or physically.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:37:26 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet It happens, man. Don't ask me how. I always ruin everything somehow. And then they're gone.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:38:15 UTC from web-
@yodelerty What draws somebody to you to begin with...has to be that that person respects who you are, likes who you are or believes your intentions are good, and wants to continue talking to you and being around you because you're...you both just click in a weird sense. That "click" never goes away for real friends. If your friends are superficial and judgemental, then eventually you'll find out and they'll ditch you. Real friendships that last a lifetime ARE POSSIBLE, because I've experienced at least one so far. It is not a myth.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:44:25 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet I don't think it's possible for someone to click with me. I'm basically like half a person. I mean, who'd even want to? This is the real me: someone who decides that complaining about their life on an MLP site is a good idea. Who the hell wants that around? No one, that's who. I have to put on an act to even get close to someone. Because the real me is just unlikable.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:49:15 UTC from web-
@yodelerty No, the real you is sad and needs stimulation in life. You need something to look forward to, something to desire. You need to have fun with fun people, and get out of your hole you've deposited yourself in for the last few months. It'll change your outlook.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:52:37 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet I don't know any fun people. And the only thing I'm looking forward to is the day I don't feel like jumping in front of the nearest train every second of every day.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:55:41 UTC from web
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@clayinthecarpet Having 2 to 6 REAL friends at age ~30 is the standard
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:29:17 UTC from web
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@tia And I only whine because I literally feel so hopeless that it's all I can think of doing. Which makes no sense but.. y'know. Stuff.
Monday, 20-Jan-14 08:16:41 UTC from web
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