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Vivid imagery of cutting my jaw muscles out to wring the lactic acid from them before putting them back.
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@ceruleanspark What the hell man.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:18:26 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@yodelerty I'm kind of broken internally. Did you read the vein thing from before?
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@ceruleanspark Must have missed it. Could I get a recap?
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:22:22 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I want to cut myself in such a way that I can just pull all the veins out of my arm like a web
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@ceruleanspark Dude why.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:23:32 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I guess there's just something wrong with me. Sometimes I imagine the veins all getting clotted and drying up so that they crack like twigs when I move them
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@ceruleanspark That is some FANTASTIC imagery! No joke. I love it =^.^=
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@flaredancer I find it particularly satisfying for reasons I cannot divine.
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@ceruleanspark Doesn't work, not even after clearing all browsing history. Could be because it's the Linux version of Firefox, it's missing some more things (like that silly button in the "top window border" that the window version has to retain compatibility with more window mangers (so it could be it just lets my window manager draw the sidebar, which explains it)
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:38:28 UTC from api -
@ceruleanspark I do similar things sometimes. Occasionally when I'm hearing voices, I imagine cutting open my wrists and pulling creatures out of me to stop the voices. But, even when I'm feeling very good mental health-wise, I just love morbid imagery.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:38:54 UTC from web-
@flaredancer When you say hearing voices, are they fully formed coherent words or just more like abstract impulses that will you to do things?
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@ceruleanspark Depends. Sometimes it's one, sometimes the other.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:41:40 UTC from web-
@flaredancer I was trying to divine if I could be considered as "Hearing voices" when I get my various abstract urges to commit bizzare and frequently physically impossible feats of self harm.
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@ceruleanspark #hugs you o,o
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:44:18 UTC from api-
@omni It's like, I want to do the vein thing, but it's not out of a desire to be hurt, suffer or die, it's because I want to see and feel it.
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@ceruleanspark Yeah, well, I'd rather have you not do it. I completely understand what you mean, but the risk of you dying it a tad bit too high for me to accept you to do something like that, you know? Fantasizing about it should be fine, as long as you can clearly keep a line between fantasy and reality. And, well, #hugs. Just promise me you won't actually try it, please =/
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:50:08 UTC from Choqok-
@omni Without some kind of high precision surgical laser, I literally can't try it so we're good.
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@ceruleanspark Good #hugs >_<
Thursday, 24-May-12 10:00:17 UTC from Choqok
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@ceruleanspark I think it's quite possibly something similar. I tend to link the two, but I'm no psychologist
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:44:54 UTC from web-
@flaredancer I'm nothing but a toaster repairpony so, I couldn't say either
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@ceruleanspark I'm just speaking from personal experience. Sometimes the self harm urges come from me, but other times it feels like something else is telling me I need to do it for reasons I don't know.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:48:06 UTC from web
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@ceruleanspark I'd tell you to get help but I know you already do. There's something wrong with everyone, though, so it's not a big deal.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:27:50 UTC from web
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@ceruleanspark mhm. yes. Thank you.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:23:44 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@ceruleanspark lol. Reading this stuff while looking at your avatar. Priceless.
Thursday, 24-May-12 09:19:56 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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