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@metaltao It was meant to be some-what of an comparison. Cheyenne's heart would be left and mine, of course, right.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:20:26 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 You have a deep wound. It bleeds a lot. I want to fix it. Please, let me help. You got blood all over my suit and my petunias.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:22:40 UTC from web-
@metaltao Reminds me of a quote, "You ripped out my heart.. And I apologized for getting blood on your shirt." (Anyways, don't think there's much you, or anyone other than Chy, could really do for me.)
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:24:20 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 Actually.. Now that I think of it.. I said that to Cheyenne... She didn't enjoy that too much.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:26:51 UTC from web -
@deadmadness665 Bullhonky, There is always something to do. There is a reason why we feel sad and empathy, we try to explain our emotions, no matter how inexpressible to gain wisdom and joy. To understand one another on a more deeply rooted level. Just speak what is on your mind, it will all come in stride.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:30:39 UTC from web-
@metaltao You damned psychologists always have the answers.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:33:04 UTC from web-
@clayinthecarpet Oh, *blushu* Thanks mate! Here , have this! http://rainbowdash.net/url/797638
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:33:38 UTC from web
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@metaltao What's on my mind is always the same, Metal. And it can be summed up as simple as "Cheyenne"... I mean.. What do you want me to say? I'm obsessed, over-dramatic and.. most of all.. I want her back... Ah, nevermind.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:35:18 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 You are doing good. How does beiing alone make you feel? You love art, and you REALLY like sharing this stuff, does that bring you joy? Or, is there something more to it?
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:36:19 UTC from web-
@metaltao Empty... I feel like the best thing in my life... One of the few things that actually made me happy has been torn away from me.. And yeah, I like art. I like having a way to exert my feelings and to have a "nice job!" thrown my way... You know how I called that piece where the heart where being torn in two "Hearts of Crystal'?
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:40:42 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 A heart s strong, but has a severe weak point that can ruin everything. It is the cleaving point at which, no matter how softly, a weak heart will crack and break, releasing its shrapnel across the cold floor. I can sense you have gained some insight about how to understand these feels from this art correct? From what I have read, you enjoy close company, compliments when you deserve them on your work, and your heart. You feel empty eh? Do you love Cheyenne? How much so? Is it love for you? Or, do you love to see her happy?
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:45:20 UTC from web-
@metaltao It may sound selfish.. Oh, who am I kidding, it IS selfish.. But.. Seeing her happy without me destroys me... I love her but.. My happiness is based around her and how she feels about me.. but.. she acts as though i'm just a bump in the road of her everyday life.. And it doleing sucks... Occasionally she'll tell me she cares and she'll reach out to help.. Only to turn her back on me and act as though it never happened the next moment...
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:51:59 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 Your problem is your happiness is solely imposed on you from her, unless you change the dependence of your attitude there's nothing anyone can do to help you.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:54:07 UTC from web-
@northernnarwhal See, @metaltao . I told you, nothing anyone can do, save me stopping being an obsessive pup or Chy...
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:56:38 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 Everyone can change. And their emotions are not statiic. You are not like that. Hardly ever.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:57:17 UTC from web-
@metaltao You don't even know, man. If you saw the way I look on the other side of this screen half the time i'm acting all "hunky dory" you might feel different.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:59:13 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 Are you saying one can not change? I should know how this feels, I went through this for 7 years starting at the age of 5. Sir, you are not being selfish, what you feel is what is true to you. You feel jealous but that is natural of many people to do. It does not make you a monster nor, does it degrade your status as a human being, in fact. it makes you more human. You love work, it is there for you. She is there for you sometimes, she is merely waiting for you to get out of this pile of denial about you being harmful to others. You care. You have shown that by hating the jealousy you feel, it stops you from hurting her.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 02:06:16 UTC from web
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@metaltao I'm sorry, Metal. I know you're trying very hard to help me and you are very good at consoling, but.. There's no way to dig me out my grave, especially when I insist on digging it myself.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 02:04:50 UTC from web
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@deadmadness665 Metal's spitting some serious truth right now, listen to him.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:58:12 UTC from web
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@deadmadness665 RANDOM RANDOM RANDOM! I can't even type a fluent cherriesing paragraph...Wow.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:36:26 UTC from web-
@deadmadness665 You are just flustered, it is ok mate.
Monday, 03-Nov-14 01:37:05 UTC from web
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