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  1. @rarity I thought you were going to go sleep after the shower?

    Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:44:04 UTC from web
    1. @renovatedkitchen my hair is drying xD

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:44:42 UTC from web
      1. @rarity Ah.

        Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:45:09 UTC from web
        1. @renovatedkitchen wet pillows=no fun

          Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:45:45 UTC from web
          1. @rarity I always go to bed after a shower. Messes up my hair, pillow gets a bit wet, but I dont care too much. My hair is fairly short as it is

            Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:49:20 UTC from web
            1. @renovatedkitchen I feel like I fall asleep easier with wet hair.

              Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:50:26 UTC from web
              1. @wafers That may be the same with me. Still depends on my mood though

                Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:51:03 UTC from web
                1. @renovatedkitchen My mood is generally "F*** it all, i'm going to sleep." Even when i'm not supposed to be sleeping. Sleep is my 2nd favorite thing to do.

                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:52:38 UTC from web
                  1. @wafers probably my second favorite thing to do too

                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:53:09 UTC from web
                  2. @wafers It is fairly relaxing

                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:54:10 UTC from web
            2. @renovatedkitchen I can't do that with mine xD my hair is not just long(ish) but THICK as hell, so it'll get messed up if I sleep now.

              Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:50:54 UTC from web
              1. @rarity then dont use a pillow~

                Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:51:59 UTC from web
                1. @mushi my hair would still get ruined :P

                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:53:27 UTC from web
                  1. @rarity i sleep after shower sometimes

                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:53:53 UTC from web
              2. @rarity My hair could be used as antennae for an old TV set the next morning after I shower>sleep.

                Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:52:02 UTC from web
                1. @renovatedkitchen oh gosh xP Maybe on the weekend I'd do that, but I have to look fabulous for school!

                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:53:15 UTC from web
                  1. @rarity Eh. I guess. But why fall for someone because of their looks

                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:55:05 UTC from web
                    1. @renovatedkitchen I'm not saying that.. I just want to look cute.

                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:56:18 UTC from web
                      1. @rarity I guess that makes sense. Maybe one day I will work on how I look/present myself

                        Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:57:39 UTC from web
                        1. @renovatedkitchen just know that you shouldn't look good for others. Look good for yourself, if that's what YOU want.

                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:59:05 UTC from web
                          1. @rarity [Insert comment on hating self and never able to look good]

                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:00:29 UTC from web
                            1. @renovatedkitchen Just do with yourself what you want to do. You want to dress casually, do it. You want to be slovenly, do it. You want to like crossdress or something, do it! It all goes back to do what you want.

                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:02:46 UTC from web
                              1. @rarity I honestly just wear whatever is on top in my dresser, do nothing fancy and lame wear dock shoes

                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:04:44 UTC from web
                                1. @renovatedkitchen like I said, as long as you're you, you are beautiful. (And I think those kind of shoes are cute)

                                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:06:30 UTC from web
                                  1. @rarity That's one of my many random things I hate. When people say things like shoes are cute. Or when they say "that girl/guy is cute." Clothes and humans are not cute. Puppies are cute. Random petpeeves ftw!

                                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:08:39 UTC from web
                                    1. @wafers non puppies can be cute!

                                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:10:04 UTC from web
                                  2. @rarity But nothing I do make myself think I am beautiful

                                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:09:18 UTC from web
                                    1. @renovatedkitchen well maybe if I tell you it enough times you'll start to believe it. You're beautiful, Stephan.

                                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:09:48 UTC from web
                                      1. @rarity I dont feel it. I've honestly hammered the self hate into myself too far.

                                        Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:13:07 UTC from web
                                        1. @renovatedkitchen then I'll just have to work extra hard!

                                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:14:39 UTC from web
                                          1. @rarity You'll break you back for nothing

                                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:16:50 UTC from web
                                            1. @renovatedkitchen it's not nothing. Every second spent talking to you is well spent in my book, even if you're down.

                                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:18:14 UTC from web
                                              1. @rarity I've honestly hated myself for as long as I can remember. I can look back into the first grade and recall the way I treated myself and how I thought

                                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:22:47 UTC from web
                                                1. @renovatedkitchen well, as long as I can remember knowing you, I've loved you. I know you don't feel the same way about yourself, but a lot of people do. Just know that.

                                                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:24:38 UTC from web
                                                  1. @rarity And I do accept that. But what others tell me vs living with myself. I have battered hating myself in so deep I can say that its part of who I am

                                                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:28:23 UTC from web
                                                    1. @renovatedkitchen How can I put this... That doesn't change how I feel.

                                                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:30:09 UTC from web
                                                      1. @rarity I do understand and accept that. But I personally cannot like myself in the slightest bit.

                                                        Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:32:44 UTC from web
                                                        1. @renovatedkitchen Maybe we can work on that.

                                                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:33:27 UTC from web
                                                          1. @rarity Honestly Nico, I have always hated myself, everything I have done and everything. When I was younger, I had a reoccurring dream almost every night that consisted of a voice yelling at me that I am stupid, a failure and that is all I will ever be. I grew to enjoy those dreams and would fake laugh and I would have a false smile all through the dream to try to dampen the effects of the dream. I rarely get the dream these days, but it was nearly every night until about 3-4 years ago

                                                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:38:30 UTC from web
                                                            1. @renovatedkitchen Duuude... I think you might need professional support, or something. NO ONE should HATE themselves.

                                                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:39:56 UTC from web
                                                              1. @zeldatra No I'm fine. I am still alive and breathing

                                                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:41:27 UTC from web
                                                            2. @renovatedkitchen I wish I could say something that would make things better.

                                                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:40:00 UTC from web
                                                              1. @rarity Don't worry. Its the thought that counts really

                                                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:42:02 UTC from web
                                                                1. @renovatedkitchen if you say so...

                                                                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:43:11 UTC from web
                                        2. @renovatedkitchen I hate myself but am a complete narcissist at the same time. I'm a mess internally.

                                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:15:21 UTC from web
                                          1. @wafers Sounds about right

                                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:18:16 UTC from web
                                        3. @renovatedkitchen Then again the only reason I hate myself is because I hate all humans by default. Just something I always had.

                                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:16:14 UTC from web
                                          1. @wafers Nearly every human born into existance sucks, I can confirm that

                                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:19:11 UTC from web
                                    2. @renovatedkitchen people seems to tend to be like this

                                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:10:16 UTC from web
                                      1. @mushi tend to hate themselves?

                                        Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:13:41 UTC from web
                                        1. @renovatedkitchen tend to think they are worse than they really are

                                          Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:14:35 UTC from web
                                          1. @mushi But the average person can look in a mirror and say "Hey you're cool because you do ______ very well

                                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:17:45 UTC from web
                                            1. @renovatedkitchen what people say is different from what they think

                                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:19:02 UTC from web
                                              1. @mushi Oh, Rodolfo, I tell myself and think to myself how much I dislike me

                                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:23:53 UTC from web
                                                1. @renovatedkitchen than you're doing it wrong

                                                  Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:26:00 UTC from web
                                                  1. @mushi No, Im doing it right based on myself

                                                    Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:29:07 UTC from web
                                                    1. @renovatedkitchen this is cleary an emotional opinion. I dont think emotional opinion should be taken seriously

                                                      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:31:34 UTC from web
                                                      1. @mushi I'm always critical and self hating of myself. Even if it would be an emotional opinion, if its always with me it has become part of me

                                                        Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:33:47 UTC from web
                          2. @rarity I live by the code: I think I look cool, I look cool. Even though I know I don't.

                            Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:00:51 UTC from web
                            1. @wafers that's not a bad way to go about it.

                              Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:01:06 UTC from web
                              1. @rarity And that code stems from "only my opinion really matters to me." code.

                                Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:02:35 UTC from web
    2. @wafers yeah, well, this is memory foam.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 03:47:26 UTC from web
    3. @vt3c nope /topic

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:02:10 UTC from web
    4. @vt3c exactly. Perfection is boring.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:09:14 UTC from web
    5. @vt3c Why would you want to date anyone? Just get yourself into uneeded situations.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:09:31 UTC from web
    6. @vt3c you've got it.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:12:13 UTC from web
    7. @vt3c #

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:13:49 UTC from web
    8. @vt3c Now that sounds awful. Everything about weed is awful.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:13:57 UTC from web
    9. @vt3c I have nothing about me that I like

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:16:17 UTC from web
    10. @vt3c I am who I am and thats it. Nothing to change. /attempts to cheer me up or something

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:20:44 UTC from web
    11. @vt3c Thats not even a good analogy.

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:25:31 UTC from web
    12. @vt3c None that I am proud of

      Monday, 11-Mar-13 04:25:55 UTC from web