Cerulean Lulamoon-Spark (ceruleansparkold)'s status on Thursday, 13-Oct-11 09:18:54 UTC
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I think it says a lot about me that I can't even decide which way would be the best way to end my life. Pills? I've got two months worth of high strength antidepressants. I imagine that that much neurotransmitter surpressant would do me no good at all, but it's too slow. Someone could interfere. Slit my wrists? I've got the knife right here. I was gonna do it yesterday but then I chickened out. Jump off/under something? It doesn't seem fair to whoever has to clean up, or the driver of whatever vehicle I use. Hanging? My office has a nice oak beam, but I'd have to buy a rope and I'm kiwity at tying knots. I can't get a gun, and modern cars are too safe for me to just run mine into something. Self immolation appeals to me on an intellectual level but I bet it hurts like a mangoes. Suffocation? It's thorough and comparatively painless, but what could I actually do it with? My car is too environmentally friendly to gas me and my cooker is electric.
