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The Cabal has arrived.
Monday, 04-Apr-11 23:23:56 UTC from web-
@woona We are talking about poniboorus corpse and o who volunteers to sort things out.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:48:05 UTC from web -
@woona morning
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:48:22 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:48:30 UTC from web
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@woona Pfffttt.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:48:58 UTC from web -
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:49:46 UTC from web
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@woona So how are you, my melonfearing friend?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:49:52 UTC from web -
@woona hi. Been better as of recently. Two days ago, I tried driving this metal rod through the side of my head (via that soft spot), but I have this failsafe built in that stops me usually. Pretty much arm went funny, lost grip and physically couldn't do it. Then yesterday I was super happy. Like super happy. Now I think I'm just tired
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:51:46 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Why? Just why?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:53:22 UTC from web-
@hakupony /shrug I have no idea what my mind does these days
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:54:52 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@woona Hai. I haven't slept yet. XD
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:52:28 UTC from web -
@woona Sick you?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:53:25 UTC from web -
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:53:48 UTC from web
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@woona ^u^
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:55:39 UTC from web -
@woona Rather good - it feels nice to waste a whole day. About your mood - you should sleep some more - it can really help brighten you up a bit. Apart from that #hugs
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:56:59 UTC from web -
@woona *hugs* it's all good. My failsafe tends to catch myself before I do something stupid to myself. Tends to. I swear I have someone watching over me sometimes. How you been?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 06:57:32 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen You know - if that failsafe does not work and you really kill yourself - I promie you I will find a way to channel your ghost to tell you what i think of such sh** to bind you to something to flush down the toilet. So don't do it.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:05:02 UTC from web-
@hakupony but I'm sure my spirit wouldn't appreciate being flushed down a toilet :(. Like I say, someone seems to be watching over me
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:07:39 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen That is the point. Seriously - if your failsafe would not have worked, you would be gone. We would be sad...
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:09:47 UTC from web-
@hakupony I don't really have a big influence. I'll be okay though. You guys are great people ^_^ I try not to.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:10:36 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Is that "I don't have a big influence" true or just an excuse for not having to deal with what you tried? I believe that your mind is part of your self and it is possible to control it to some degree.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:12:59 UTC from web-
@hakupony I don't have a big influence as in I don't feel as though I've helped anyone to consider it a major help. I've always been hard on myself
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:14:56 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen If you want to hel anyone here, then survive. It would cause heavy damage to us if you died.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:18:29 UTC from web-
@hakupony probably not, but I mean, I personally don't believe I have helped anyone enough to put a smile on my face
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:19:52 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Even if you didn't... you still have time and you could become better at helping people at that time.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:21:37 UTC from web-
@hakupony I know. It's all just something wrong with me mentally
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:22:18 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@woona @renovatedkitchen sanity is overrated. Do you think that wars are started by cracy people? In the contrary - you have to be very sane to pull something like that off. Or another thing: there is scientiic proof the depressive people judge their part in successes more realistic as "sane" people do. If i were a king or something like that, i would take a depressive adviser because I needed someone to tell me what could go wrong. The only thing I really dislike about the whole affair: You are good people and I want you to be happy - at least occasionally. And I don't want you to die.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:28:52 UTC from web-
@hakupony for me I'm either depressed, suicidal, or SUPER happy. Its weird. I see what you are saying though. It actually kinda does make sense
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:32:18 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:01:00 UTC from web
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@noirbatch that's no good :( migraines are horrible :(. Any way I can help?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:01:59 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Idk #hugs
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:04:23 UTC from web-
@noirbatch my mom gets them somewhat often so I'll get her a bucket and stuff incase she pukes I go cuddle with her. So #cuddles!
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:05:38 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:06:02 UTC from web
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@woona Hello :3
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@woona I'm sorry to hear that :( #HUGS!! I hope everything is going to be better much sooner :(. And yes. Because all in all, I should have been dead about 3-4 years ago
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:04:48 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona I cannot lol XD I have been trying for like 4 hours lol
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:04:51 UTC from web -
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@woona I want to lol :D
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:08:44 UTC from web -
@woona in sorry to hear :( #hugs but it will clear up! And I'm sorry to ear about your situation a year and a half ago :( I would very miss you too! :'(
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:09:23 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona in sorry to hear :( #hugs but it will clear up! And I'm sorry to ear about your situation a year and a half ago :( I would very miss you too! :'(
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:09:23 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona if I'm okay to ask, what saved you from your attempt?
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:13:10 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:13:42 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@woona oh. So you never went though with it? That's good :) I'm glad you're here
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:20:39 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona ah. That really sucks :( I hate it when it gets to that point. I too don't know what keeps me from it. One time I tried to overdose. I (did?) the feeling was like just horrible, I explained it once, from what I do remember. What kept me alive? I am still stumped to this day.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:25:32 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona #hugs. Ears ringing, no vision, no energy, collapsed, can't even puke. Bad :( its funny because I can probably point a lot of my mental problems to that. :p
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:30:24 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona This is very true. My favorite philosopher, Michel Foucault, wrote one of his most imortant books on how the definition of insanityy i just a social construction - it is a very hard read but if ou are interested I can try to sum it up soon.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:34:05 UTC from web -
@woona I don't like to use things as an excuse but rather a definition I can feed my mind so it can calm down a bit. After my OD, I couldn't eat for a week. The smell of food made me puke. Although before the OD was fun :3
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:38:07 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona "Madness and Civilication" and "the birth of Clinic." But be warned - he really is hard to understand :)
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:39:29 UTC from web -
@woona They are in french - but translated into most languages.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:41:20 UTC from web -
@woona Mhm. I mean like someone would open their food, I would smell it, would have to puke. Drink water? I would puke. At first, I felt dam amazing because of what I chose to OD on. Kept taking more. Felt sick, took more, ate some stuff that affects it negatively, took more. That's when it hit me that I'm going down.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:42:37 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona Mhm. I now understand the meaning of "If you're going to kill yourself, do it right"
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:46:17 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona why do I honestly just constantly want to die? :/ I don't want to, but I feel like I need to. It's hard to explain
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:49:35 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@woona I'm good :) I got a B in English ^3^
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@woona no, not even easier. Just there's part of me that really wants me to die. Like if I let it control me, I would be in pieces. Don't know how to explain :/
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:52:42 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen *hugs*
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Monday, 18-Jun-12 08:06:12 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@woona hehe, I guess your English-class is more advanced than mine x3 #Englishcuddle
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@woona I don't understand, why we have this feeling? I still want to finish melting my brain away. Every darn day. Like inhale some brake cleaner or some other thing that is very highly toxic.
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:57:10 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen One thing... #hugs...
Monday, 18-Jun-12 07:58:21 UTC from web-
Monday, 18-Jun-12 08:07:17 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@woona it's a very weird world out there. Lol
Monday, 18-Jun-12 08:07:32 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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