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Hey everypony. I apologize for my somewhat daunting post a few hours ago.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:19:27 UTC from web-
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:20:10 UTC from web
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@pony Thanks! Everything is all better now. :D http://ur1.ca/9utn3
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:24:27 UTC from web-
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@dlcentaur what did you post ?
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:21:39 UTC from web-
@bluetearainbowdash Look back, you'll see them. :P
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:23:01 UTC from web
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Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:22:38 UTC from web
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@widget I made a very firm promise to not harm myself. I can't say the feelings won't come back, but I absolutely refuse to act on them.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:25:27 UTC from web-
@dlcentaur it's hard not to sometimes. Isn't it
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:26:50 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen Very. *Hugs*
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:29:43 UTC from web-
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:31:10 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@widget I keep mine to myself.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:28:12 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget how do /you/ know what I have?
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:30:09 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen I think we both had a similar issue, buddy. Maybe not the same problem... but relatable symptoms. It's not fun... but it is possible to overcome.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:32:21 UTC from web-
@dlcentaur possible. I hope very much it doesn't get worse for you. Try seeing a psychiatrist maybe?
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:35:17 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen If I see one, it will be one that I trust. He was actually one of my teachers, so, yeah. I hope it gets better for you as well. c:
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:36:22 UTC from web-
@dlcentaur the sooner the better. Thank you
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:37:06 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen You're welcome. :)
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:39:00 UTC from web
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@widget oh. I've done bad things. I'm still breathing though. That's a plus I suppose. Been very borderline about my survival lately though. It's all fine.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:34:06 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget mentally?
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:35:53 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget it's not rude bud. You're kind about it so thats nice.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:36:29 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget mentally or physically? Mentally, not sure, but probably something like mania, most indefinitely a strong OCD, and aspergers. Those I'm pretty very sure of as I've been cutting out possibilities. physically, I've filled a bottle with antifreeze and put it under my bed. I've been a pretty morbid person lately.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:39:43 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget with parents. Saving for my own place.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:42:43 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget I won't be moving out for another 2 years at least. That's not a worry. And no they don't.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:47:00 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget I don't think telling parents that you have a bottle of antifreeze under your bed is going to help my cause.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:51:31 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen "I'm saving it for when my car has temperature issues in the winter!" #idbemorespecificbutiknownothingaboutcars
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:53:16 UTC from web-
@redenchilada if I was saving it for my car it would be in the garage.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:56:17 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen "There are little bunny thieves who sneak into the garage at night with their bunny magic and steal antifreeze! I didn't want them stealing my antifreeze."
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:57:50 UTC from web-
@redenchilada I'll try that if they ask
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:58:45 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@widget it's there. I put it there last night.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 05:55:10 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget meh. I want to leave it there for when I get my next bad episode. Sorta put me on the edge of things and see how it plays out. Apparently it tastes sweet, but it smells exactly like vodka
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:01:40 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget it will help me decided between life and death.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:08:36 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget I'm not necessarily religious, but I am spiritual. I believe in God, Jesus and all, but I don't follow a specific religion.
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@widget So, I can drink this, and if I wasn't supposed to die yet I won't? I'm not sure chemistry agrees with that
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:18:50 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen I think the idea was that the big man in the sky will keep you from killing yourself if said big man doesn't want you dead.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:20:12 UTC from web-
@redenchilada I tried to kill my self once before, didn't work even though it should. I was stumped after as to how I didn't die
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:24:11 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@widget yeah. I know. Suicide is supposed to be the biggest sin. Thats one of the few things that's stopped me from going through with some things.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:23:03 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget Oh. I haven't been in touch with the whole religion deal, so apologies if I get something wrong on the matter.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:23:45 UTC from web -
@widget no. It has been bothering my anxiety though, because I can loose control over me sometimes. (oh. And that. I most definitely have anxiety problems).
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:28:59 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget myself hates me and wants me to die, the real me seems to have a tiny voice in all this and doesn't want me to. So, it's like a battle. Waiting to see who wins and takes the cake. I've let go of the reigns of my mean/rude/insane and hateful side as of recent.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:34:12 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget the other me has a very strong voice in all of this. The more I manage to think, the more I hate myself, the closer I get to drinking it. As I've said, I am just letting things play through. I've set the cards, now I just wait for something to happen. I can't live like this if it's going to continue.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:41:45 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget just because of my many flaws, sub par looks, and inability to control my meanness at times.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:46:52 UTC from StatusNet iPhone -
@widget meh. I have too many flaws. At the moment it seems to be a race of me getting my car ready and getting a psychiatrist appointment and my next bad episode. I have it all planned out too.
Monday, 30-Jul-12 06:55:00 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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