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I sound like a stupid optimist
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:42:43 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen Optimism is better than pessimism.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:44:19 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Not really though. Be optimistic about life and you are going to be having lots of disappointment
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:45:59 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen The key, I believe, is to retain your optimism even after experiencing disappointments. Just keep a positive outlook on life and the disappointments will fade away.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:47:43 UTC from web-
@yodelerty I do believe I have lost that touch. Lately people have been complaining that I no longer smile everywhere. Guess I finally realize that life will always send bad things your way, no matter what you do
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:49:33 UTC from web-
@renovatedkitchen That's pretty much the truth, unfortunately
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:50:58 UTC from web-
@yodelerty exactly why I can no longer be an optimist. I will give others optimistic outlooks if I don't feel like talking though. Makes it easier for them, or something.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:52:20 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen It's unfortunate that life has to be that way. You seem like a good person so here's hoping that things turn around for you in a way that will allow you to be happy.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:54:40 UTC from web-
@yodelerty it's doubtful. Even though I have a goal and want to achieve it and help others, I can't look in a mirror or hear my own voice without thinking how ugly/stupid/dumb I sound/look. Even though I pull through each day, it's so hard to. I feel heavy and empty inside. I feel disconnected and lots of sadness. It just won't leave me.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 06:58:04 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen I don't know what to say, man. I'd like to help you out in any way I can. Really, I would. But all I have is words and I know from personal experience that words from a single person can never help with depression. 'Cause depression is a bananas. It ruins good people.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:05:16 UTC from web-
@yodelerty Yes a bananas
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:05:27 UTC from web -
@yodelerty it really is. For the most part, it's even curable, but because of career choices, I can't. What a catch. Oh well. I like to vent on here. It helps me take the focus off how much I hate myself. Maybe one day I will be able to help/save someone and use that as leverage to feel better. I don't even feel alright these days. It's just such an awful feeling. And I have to go to a school where I hold bad memories at. Each day is both a beating and a reward. I hate talking about this on here, but it does really make me feel better, because it takes my focus.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:10:44 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen You know, if you don't want to vent in such a public place, I'm available on Skype sometimes. I don't know when you're on Skype or whatever but I'd be willing to listen to you vent whenever we happen to be on at the same time.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:19:08 UTC from web-
@yodelerty eh. I don't really enjoy venting to one person, because it makes me feel mean. I dunno. I'm weird.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 15:04:40 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@renovatedkitchen I wouldn't see it as mean but alright then. That offer's always there if you ever change your mind.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 18:49:56 UTC from StatusNet iPhone-
@yodelerty I may. We'll see. I don't mind hating myself, but it usually gets out of hand and that's when I can't stand it
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 18:58:51 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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@renovatedkitchen @yodelerty As am I.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:21:00 UTC from web
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@renovatedkitchen Also, take this from an optimist's point of view. I don't have lots of disappointment.
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 07:21:57 UTC from web-
@tenebarius maybe you have a lot of luck then
Thursday, 07-Feb-13 15:05:04 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
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