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Like seriously I should get a display case for all my poni
Friday, 01-Mar-13 05:33:24 UTC from web-
@rarity How much pony do you have?
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@rarity I have have way too many blind bags.... Wait oh wait .. I mean not enough
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@renovatedkitchen hm... 20 blindbags, 3 brushables, and like 4 or 5 McDonalds Raritys. I seriously went to McD's that many times and got Rarity every time
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@rarity You crazy (lucky) Nico!
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@renovatedkitchen Why do I need 5 Rarity's though? I wish I had had at least a couple different ones..
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@rarity Why would someone /not/ need five rarities. She is very awesome
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@renovatedkitchen A couple are still in the bag in case they suddenly increase in value l3
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@rarity Lol. Cant argue with that I guess. Although I am hoping to one day pick up some Minuette ones
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@renovatedkitchen do they sell toys of her besides bind bags?
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@rarity Not that I've seen. Only plushies that cost $200
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@renovatedkitchen worth it.
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@rarity THats like an entire paycheck. And I still have LOTS to pay off
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@renovatedkitchen aww...
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@rarity Its the circle of life
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@renovatedkitchen not getting plushies is the circle of life?
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@rarity Nah. Debt and not getting enough to pay it
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@renovatedkitchen oh..
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@rarity Oh the stresses of life
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@renovatedkitchen Yeah, I feel for you :/ You know if you ever need to talk about things more personally I'm here for you.
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@rarity Thanks Nico. I may take you up on that. Lots of people here have been very supporting though and that is very nice
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@renovatedkitchen There's so many good people on this site, it's unbelieveable. We're very tight knit and that's why I love it so much.
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@rarity Very much so! Its a really great thing :)
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@renovatedkitchen I swear to god if I hit the lottery I'm hosting a big RDN meetup and everybody gets to come.
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@rarity Yessss
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@yodelerty except for weenies
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@rarity I hate those guys (◡‿◡✿)
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@rarity It would really be awesome if that could happen, but realistically it wouldn't :(
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@yodelerty who doesn't?
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@renovatedkitchen yeah... and I don't make too much at my job, so even if I saved all I make it wouldn't be enough. but dreaming is fun!
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@rarity Dreaming is fun. I'm just sick of always dreaming and knowing that I will never reach any of them
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@renovatedkitchen I know things can seem unlikely. Just never say never.
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@rarity I used to not, but somethings are really for never
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@renovatedkitchen ... :c
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@crusader8 SMD
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@rarity smd?
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@rarity There's only one way to settle this: Legend of the Five Rings
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@rarity There are many things that we will never be able to do and most of us will end up doing some kind of job that we hate. Bad things happen along the way and we are forced to live with the consequences.
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@crusader8 is that sanic
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@renovatedkitchen but so many good things are around too..
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@rarity No, though my deck is pretty fasty
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@crusader8 gatta ga fast
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@rarity But the bad things that happen have a much greater effect on us
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@rarity tis why I go by military victory and not honor victory.winning by honor is too slow, or too easily disrupted.
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@renovatedkitchen I suppose :/
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@rarity Life is so depressing
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@renovatedkitchen yeah.
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@rarity SOmetimes I'm not sure if I should continue relieving my stress or if I should build more inside of me
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@renovatedkitchen that depends on how you relieve your stress.
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@rarity I usually manage to relieve it as anger towards someone, myself included. But it has to be natural. Like instead of backing down and saying sorry, I'll go on the offensive. But then at the end of the day, I do feel better, but I'm also still depressed and it pains. Thats why most times I think that maybe I should find a way to give more stress and hate towards me so that I can see what it does and maybe it will set me back to normal
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@renovatedkitchen maybe find someone who likes "absorbing" anger? Like an emotional punching bag? I know that some people don't mind.
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@rarity That doesnt work though. Its weird. If I notice that I havent hurt someone, I cant let go of it. Unless I really break someone it does no good
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@renovatedkitchen oh.
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@rarity Which is why I want to see if I can get others to make me feel worse and see if that helps
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@renovatedkitchen how would thathelp?
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@renovatedkitchen @yodelerty Annnd... this!~ http://ur1.ca/cxn3p
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@rarity Throw me out of this state. The more self hate I can muster, the better I perform. So it would benefit me in a way
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@tenebarius Ive got that one. It looks awesome though
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@tenebarius That's a really cute one. :D
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@tenebarius DRUNKY PUNCH
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@renovatedkitchen I guess?
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@renovatedkitchen Getting angry can solve problems, but self-hate is damaging.
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@tenebarius But the catch is, most of the time I am the problem. The more I hate myself, the better of a person I become and the more I can do, yet the sadder I become. As with anything its a trade off
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@renovatedkitchen NO. You're not the problem, but your actions or habits may be. It's learning to change those.
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@renovatedkitchen Look, please don't hate yourself. Everybody has flaws, everybody makes mistakes, and sure, everyone has times where they are upset with themselves. But you are a good person! Even if you can make bad choices you are a good person.
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@tenebarius We are defined by our actions. It would be a change for the better because then I will be able to push myself that much more when I am in the forces. At that point I would take that over happiness at any rate
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@renovatedkitchen Why settle for either?
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@rarity Im not always a bad person, but I have no trait about myself that I can look on and tell myself that I love myself for that one thing. Rather than going against the current it would be better for me to go along with it
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@tenebarius What you mean?
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@renovatedkitchen I'm not a bad person (20% of the time) but there are those days...or months...
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@renovatedkitchen I love your personality.
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@renovatedkitchen To be able to push yourself farther when needed and be happy, or at least content.
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@rarity Others can find things they like about me, but I cant. I could make an infinite list of reasons I hate myself
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@renovatedkitchen don't hate yourself love yourself
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@renovatedkitchen You have no idea how much I wish I could help with that ._.
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@tenebarius When I am really pushing myself like in pain and ignoring it in order to push myself to the limit, I don't sing about daises or tell myself that my nails look pretty
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@rarity I'd gladly accept hate. It would help
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@renovatedkitchen But I don't hate you...
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@renovatedkitchen you know there are those days I do hate my self but what's calms me down is talking to myself or get a friend to my house play a game totally fail at it and pretend I'm mad at them for killing me or whatever
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@renovatedkitchen Being content isn't any of those. Often to be able to push yourself farther, you need to be content, so that you can find the will to live.
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@renovatedkitchen You aren't going to find any hate against you here I don't think.
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@yodelerty omg whar?!
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@rarity I know, I know. Its more of a personal thing anyways
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@renovatedkitchen *Hugs* :/
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@fluttershy48 Im not looking for a way to let go of the hate
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@tenebarius I usually find a will to live when it involves saving a life
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@renovatedkitchen What if that life is your own?
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@renovatedkitchen I am my family are competators so trying to do anything wit then is hard so I start to get mad and madder then I just blow up I walk off and go kick someone in the jaw
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@yodelerty I guess you're right
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@tenebarius I've already saved myself once, because I realized that it would be a waste otherwise
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@fluttershy48 I like to take it off on myself. In a way its a good feeling
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@renovatedkitchen self eh cool I cant get mad at my self to many years of depression just can do it
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@renovatedkitchen It would be a heck of a lot more than just a waste!
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@tenebarius A waste of family money for buying a casket I guess
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@renovatedkitchen A waste of a friend and a great guy...
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@tenebarius Its more just a waste that someone else could have been helped
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@renovatedkitchen Both are terrible...
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@tenebarius Hiya!
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@neurario Hey!! :D
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@tenebarius Like I say, as long as I can save someones life I'll be happy
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