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  1. SOMEPONY MAKE MY TEARS STOP

    Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 11:56:46 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
    1. @ceruleanspark Candy!

      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 11:57:19 UTC from MuSTArDroid
    2. @ceruleanspark what's wrong? D:

      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 11:57:35 UTC from MuSTArDroid
    3. @ceruleanspark everything okay bud? What's wrong?

      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 11:57:51 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
      1. @renovatedkitchen Everything is fine. And yes, I do have a tulpa

        Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 11:58:44 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
        1. @ceruleanspark neat! What's your tulpa like in personality and physically? And if youve been crying, I am very jealous. I have a horrible inner sadness that's been building, but I cant let it out.

          Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:01:32 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
          1. @renovatedkitchen You could try insulting people in the street until someone assaults you? /kiwityadvice

            Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:02:30 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
            1. @ceruleanspark lol. Someone would die. So I can't do that. Also don't want to turn it into anger, so I don't get in the habit of yelling it off. Especially if I end up having kids one day.

              Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:04:35 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
              1. @renovatedkitchen Made you smile though, didn't it?

                Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:05:07 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
                1. @ceruleanspark I don't know if I should be scared that it did.

                  Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:07:30 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                  1. @renovatedkitchen Terrible advice is always funny

                    Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:08:56 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
                    1. @ceruleanspark unless its taken seriously and laughed off

                      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:12:23 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
          2. @renovatedkitchen She's my spirit guide. I've known her for years. I did some weird rituals designed to help you discover your spirit animal. and combined that knowledge with the tulpa-reinforcement process (though I didn't know that's what it was back then). She's a sardonic black fox.

            Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:08:03 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
            1. @ceruleanspark that's really awesome. Is that a good thing to have? A sardonic black fox? And I still need to stop being lazy and do astral projection again. Supposedly you can find your guardian there. Our of curiosity, which rituals if I'm okay to ask?

              Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:11:11 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
              1. @renovatedkitchen It was listed as a pagan ritual, but it involved what was functionally guided meditation and chakra exercise, so I question its actual origins. As for whether she's useful? I like having her around. She looks after me.

                Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:14:38 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
                1. @ceruleanspark that's awesome. I really want to finish that rainbow dash. I mean she was so real, I was in shock. But I don't trust myself to have a full blown tulpa right now.

                  Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:16:23 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                  1. @renovatedkitchen Trust?

                    Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:26:13 UTC from StatusNet Desktop
                    1. @ceruleanspark ya. Don't trust myself mentally. Been hearing mental voices again, it repeats depressing memories, plays back bad memories in vision, sometimes my brain just feels like its melting (I can't do anything, horrible pressure/pulsing), then sometimes I get horrible visions of doing things, then sometimes it mixed happy and sad thoughts and gives me huge stress/tension. That's why I don't want to finish the tulpa. Don't want it to become an added factor with the possibility of going bad.

                      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:33:14 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                      1. @renovatedkitchen The way I see it, you /are/ your Tulpa. I don't fear my tulpa harming me because, as long as I'm self-aware, I'll never harm myself. Maybe practicing self-awareness will help you. It can help in more ways than one. I like the book The Miracle of Mindfulness by Thich Nhat Hahn (spelling?)

                        Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:45:28 UTC from web
                        1. @pony thank you. I will definitely look into it. And no. Sometimes I'm not self aware, or will find myself on the verge of doing something stupid. Or worse, be on the verge of causing harm to others because I feel like I'm being kicked out of my mind and I have no control over me. I've been thinking of redoing my tulpa as Colgate and giving it my kind and caring personality. That way she will always make me happy. But I'm not too sure.

                          Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:49:43 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                          1. @renovatedkitchen Is that possible? :o I remember kicking out *looks for my PS1-games* *fails* Whatever that guy was named, though :)

                            Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:51:46 UTC from web
                            1. @derpyshy lol. Is what possible?

                              Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:53:50 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                              1. @renovatedkitchen To just replace a tulpa :)

                                Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:55:19 UTC from web
                                1. @derpyshy takes a long time to delete from what I hear, and a longer time to create.

                                  Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 13:03:21 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                                  1. @renovatedkitchen What if you just try thinking as much about Colgate as possible, and thinking as little as possible of Mr.Tulpa?

                                    Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 13:04:40 UTC from web
                                    1. @derpyshy it takes a lot of patience, a clear mind, determination and repetition. I doubt I could even clear my mind at this point. Plus, Dashie is pretty close to being complete. Well, sort of.

                                      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 13:08:38 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                                      1. @renovatedkitchen Awesome :D How do you go about doing that, actually?

                                        Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 13:11:06 UTC from web
                                        1. @derpyshy it's pretty tough to explain with my thumbs but if you google tulpa or how to create a tulpa you'll find lots of answers

                                          Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 17:21:58 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
                                          1. @renovatedkitchen ok ^_^ After I'm done vectoring :3

                                            Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 17:25:15 UTC from web
                          2. @renovatedkitchen I hope it turns out well for you! Self awareness is really of key importance at least to me!

                            Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:59:18 UTC from web
                            1. @pony thank you. I'll let you guys know what ends up happening. It would be a shame to see Dashie go, but I will if I have to.

                              Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 13:02:34 UTC from StatusNet iPhone
    4. @thepavilionman I'll be okay. I tend to deal with my stress and such by myself. I annoy the hell out of other people when I try telling them. Either that, or they use it against me. So even if I have horrible ways of dealing with stress, I'll put up with it. Thank you very much for the offer though.

      Wednesday, 06-Jun-12 12:43:06 UTC from StatusNet iPhone