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Lee

@dropsterdash Quite many, hello!

Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:07:04 UTC from web

Colby

@beatstrings Quite many?

Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:07:34 UTC from web
1. Lee
  
  @dropsterdash The site is very active of the moment. So yes.
  
  Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:08:00 UTC from web
  1. Colby
    
    @beatstrings I see. Quite many hellos.
    
    Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:08:30 UTC from web
    1. Lee
      
      @dropsterdash Oh, by the way, hope you don't share the same fate, but, have you ever fell down some stairs?
      
      Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:12:08 UTC from web
      1. Colby
        
        @beatstrings Yes. Our porch stairs get very icy in the winter. I fal down them about once every other month.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:13:10 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Ah. Oh, I'm making pony icons in black ops 2 at the moment. Pinkamena to be exact. I love her psychopathic tendencies.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:15:17 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings Pinkamena? Don't go there... I have very bad memories of nightmares with her in them...
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:16:17 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash I am and back, I lived the hell and most of the time we share the same story with her. That's why she's so close to my heart. Also, I just drew her: http://rainbowdash.net/notice/3092636 So why not?
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:18:41 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings Well... Don't take it personally if I don't share your enthusiasm. I've stumbled across a few very disturbing tumblr accounts featuring her.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:21:55 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Oh I loved and learned to understand violence. Like I said, I have practiced tolerance and patience, so all I can say if you don't really like it, let's not get to that.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:24:41 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings I have no issues with violence. But I saw one of the dubs made by mindlessgonzo and it put me into a bout of depression and paranoia. Nightmares came often. It only lasted for about 11 days, but I would have to say that those 11 days were some of the worst I have experienced.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:27:58 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Oh, sorry, I never experience paranoia, fear is inevitable, too. But, I feel sorry for you. Most of my cases of fear are overcome with ease.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:31:55 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings Fear? Had it. Beat it. It comes back sometimes though... Paranoia? Had it. It threw me into a wall and curb-stomped my body until I passed out. When I woke up, it was gone. But I feel like it took a part of me with it. Depression? I fight with it constantly. Some days it wins, some days it loses.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:36:51 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Well, good for you, I've been trained for quite a time to be the most controlled emotion and uncontrollable skill to surpass mostly anyone. Depression? Well, lets just say he's my favorite expression to use, I always have it and I'm content to what it do to me. (no nothing emo, just pure, downy, heavy depression)
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:39:37 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings I'm getting kind of tired of fighting it though. Sometimes I just wish it could all be over. Nothing suicidal, but sometimes I just want to stay in bed and do nothing important for the rest of my life.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:42:47 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Getting tired is one thing, being productive is another. No judgement just do what you want, it's what it all matters when living.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:44:50 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings I don't mean tired in that sense. I just don't look forward to the stress that a class or assignment gives me. But then if I skip classes or assignments, I become afraid I will get a bad grade and not be able to get a good job... And then instead of helping others who are worse off than me, I'll be needing help from people who are better off than me. That is my biggest fear.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:48:31 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Just don't think about fear, fear is strong, ignorance and thinking is stronger.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:53:36 UTC from web
        
        Scribus
        
        @beatstrings "I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:54:51 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @scribus Beautiful, just how beautiful you lengthened that thought makes me feel a bit more happy.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:57:53 UTC from web
        
        Scribus
        
        @beatstrings It's from Dune. :)
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:58:21 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings Well, I try not to think about fear. But my ADD has me thinking at a very fast pace at all waking hours... Eventually I run out of encouraging/happy thoughts to think. At that point I generally can't help but think of scenarios of my future. Eventually, I find one or two that are somewhere between somewhat worrying and absolutely terrifying. Then I will fret about these scenarios for the rest of the week, or even the rest of my life if they are scary enough. I really wish I could change this, but that would require fundamentally changing who I am. Even if I could, I'm not sure I would want to.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 17:58:36 UTC from web
        
        Lee
        
        @dropsterdash Have you ever considered clearing? Like a refresh button perhaps. Just think of nothing. Ever thought you can fill of that nothing with everything? Think about it, if you can fill nothing, then you can fill countless times until you have "something" you wanted.
        
        Friday, 01-Nov-13 18:02:06 UTC from web
        
        Colby
        
        @beatstrings Think of nothing? I do not have the ability to think of nothing. The only time I have ever thought of nothing was when I was taking neuro-depressants to help me sleep. And even then it only lasted a minute or two.
        
        Saturday, 02-Nov-13 09:05:28 UTC from web