Notices by Cerulean Spark (ceruleanspark) tagged totw

Cerulean Spark

#totw I /do/ feel a throbbing sadness I almost cannot stand from My Little Pony, and it's not for some glib reason like "The fanbase". It's almost a sense of loss, or even jealousy, a sense that I have been cheated out of something which I might otherwise have had. It comes over me whenever I hear music or see anything from the show, this sense that I was close to something and now it's gone, beyond any hope of recovery. I don't know if it's something that changed in the fandom, or the show itself, or inside of me, but I feel it acutely and it leaves me persistently melancholy. "Nothing, when there should be something", to borrow a line from Cecil.

Pony

#totw I might have felt the former if, as when I was younger, I had less understanding of the goodness of reality and compared FiM to what I saw around me. Reality is so much more fantastic than any fiction that human minds fail to conceive it in their current state. I feel no sorrow seeing the show knowing that life holds the potential for even more joy in it than an escape to Equestria, and the good I see in FiM is only a whisper of a shadow of things to come after the crucible of life. FiM does fill me with gratitude and love for the goodness in people, especially those who conceived the show, brought it to us, and the fans and professional who've helped perpetuate it. It gives me hope that despite the turmoil we'll yet find happy society with one another.